Never been a big fan of Drake because he always seemed like a real simp ass nigga but recently I've come to realize that I was wrong about him. I think it has a lot to do with how I've changed, how experiencing love and having my heart broken for the first time has changed me. I can relate now. And what I love best is that Drake isn't just good for helping me through my mopey phase, he's still helping me now that the veil of melancholy has been lifted, into my stage of acceptance.
He creates some emotionally potent shit. I'm no longer plagued with thoughts that make me feel like shit...like I wasn't special enough for him to try to make it work and to grow to love me the way I love him. None of that bullshit exists in my mind anymore but has been replaced by thoughts of how amazing I am and how I can do no wrong! So instead of listening to Adele wail like a fucking banshee, I make playlists dedicated to my badbitchery and radicalness. I'm not even kidding. I literally have a CD in my car that says Who needs a man when you're the baddest?
Its not a testament to my blatant conceit or self-involvement. It's just what I need right now and it works; the power of music has truly moved me. My self-esteem has reached heights never before seen all because it allowed me to believe that I am perfection, that I am the best any guy I've dated will ever get. It gave me peace and truth.
There's one song that especially fills me with impish joy. It's called Shot For Me.
That song is my anthem right now because what the song is basically saying is: I made you better in every way. You were good when we met but I made you the absolute best version of yourself...and you want to act like you don't know that, you want to forget about me and all the awesomeness I gave you but that's okay. Have fun being a sub-par piece of shit.
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