Love is so fucking stupid...

I don't say this out of bitterness of having not experienced it because this year, I felt it stronger than I ever have before. This is rather out of truth. I mean I always reserved certain negative preconceived notions about it... but now that those notions have been proven, I just don't believe it's real anymore. I believe in the love that a family and God provides but everything else is utter bullshit. Real love is pure, limitless, beautiful, and unfiltered. But I've seen the way people actually love. It's dirty, it's jealous, it's evil. It's impossible for them to demonstrate real love because they are too fucking selfish to put another person first. So what they do instead is drag each other down, turn each other into people they're not, and soil, corrupt, and possess each other. Then they pass that off as love when it's really a disgusting bastardization. Seriously, if that's how it's going to be, I'm content with having nothing.